This is something that has been spoken to me for a few weeks now….I wasn’t quite sure why it kept coming to mind….but I wasn’t facing what God wanted me to face. He kept telling me “Joy comes in the Morning” when you release the struggles that are going on internally.
God has a way of humbling us, that we only understand. It is a painful process that I didn’t want to go through….but God is currently taking me through that process and here is what it looks like for me:
He is currently softening my heart, learning to listen more rather than speaking, reading proverbs…that speaks for its self, learning how to live in communion with others after living alone for the past 5 years, understanding how to effectively help others around me, and how to talk about God effectively.
That is a list. I know God is shaping me to be a man of God that isn’t defined by anything other than him. I thought I have been letting God use me in whatever way he wants but I have been resistant. But over these past few weeks, I have been asking God to “Take me Deeper”….he is doing just that.
“Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” Psalms 139:23-24. This has been a prayer I’ve stated before and God is cleaning out my heart and leading my every step.
Many biblical people come to mind when being intentional with running after God, but I have found myself reading about Peter(which a teammate shared something with me about Peter). “Then Peter called to him, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water.” Matthew 14:28
Peter had a heart that truly sought after God. His name changed from Simon to Peter, and the name Peter means “Rock.” I find it interesting that Peter means Rock and he was the disciple who was the leader of the other 11. I think Peter was a solid foundation for the others to look at as an example. He pursued/followed Jesus with everything he had inside himself. He wanted that deep relationship that couldn’t be broken. I’m finding myself fully submitting to God and allowing him to use me as he wants. I want to respond to Jesus/God/Holy Spirit just as Peter responded. It’s been a struggle to submit fully to God, but as I have been allowing him to work more in me, I’m being more free with everything I do. It’s only been 1 month since I have been on this mission….God is working through it all!
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PSSS: I’m heading to the next country in 5 days….I’ll update you when I arrive!!!
